hide and seek with the death

die. died. death. dying.

all those words are similiar to the life after this life we've been through.

again, died. have you you afraid of the death? or the angels that they called "death eaters" as in HARRY POTTER? have you afraid of them. people with less faith in God would easily terrified of the death ~yeah that's what the community USUALLY said. but just c'mon...

if that was talking about YOURSELF ~YOUR death, that's still acceptable. but if it is talking about someone else. someone near you. someone who has been with you since the day you say "ta..ta..". someone you lost. then it has already connected to a lost. a BIG LOST.

lost.

everyone everybody has always tried their best to minimalize the possibilities of losing someone or something they love. LOVE is just something soo big and soo undescribeable and that word has its own antonyms ; which called LOST.

"LOST IN LOVE" ~another drama film about a girl with two boys running after each others.

another indonesian mellow movie ~with soo PREDICTABLE ends and script! soo indonesia.

nop.

okee i believe there're some parts of your life when you experience this "LOST IN LOVE" thing. but LOST never followed the word LOVE. when you LOVE ~the last thing on earth you want to feel is that LOST. and when you LOST ~you can feel that LOVE stays deep down inside but at the same time it flies away.

PARENTS.

they are the first you see in the world. first one to kiss you to hug you. first one to tell you what is life about. what is a cat a spoon a fork ; how to sing how to walk how to run or ride a bike. they are the first to argue you to laugh at you to do all those stupid things to show how much they love you even more then their own lives.

death

having a boyfriend ~sometimes at very touching times makes me imagine or wonder how IF [but sure does i REALLY REALLY REALLY DONT WANT THAT TO BE HAPPENING!] he left me someday. sick and then passed away..

tears. crying all night long for a month and perhaps more ;p

but that's really whats gonna HAPPEN IF i lost him. then i lost a part of my heart and soul.

cos a lovers should be a soulmate, shouldnt they? (:

but then one day on a way home ; in the car. i accidentaly watch my sister my mom my dad. how IF they whom passed away ~someday? someday they'll be, wont they? but i'll also never know when and i dont want to know.

LIERS.

haha nop. i want to know when. soo i'll make all my precious time with them. the best that they could get and the best from me..

i just started to THINK. i have NEVER EVER think about HOW IF THEY DIED FASTER than i could predict? have i thanked them by then? have i hugged them kissed them and said "i love you" for thousands of time by that? i hope YESS. i hope i have already forgiven after all the mistakes and jealousies i have been made. I HOPE. but what i hope most ; THEY WOULD NEVER GONE );

but that would be meaningless right? somehow it'll happened at a time. also for me.

no one could possibly know when they'll die or that someone'll die. but EVERYONE could feel it by themsleves ~deep inside their souls.

"never gone.. never far.. in my heart is where you are.

always close. everyday. every step along the way..."

death usually caused by those sicknesses ; or just because they've already too old. or as the fairytale books said "their job in the world have finished!" but everyone ~in my own opinion always have this neverending dreams ; never been satisfied. soo is it really TRUE that their duties have all been accomplished?

as the old man sais ; "you'd better faced the DEATH than faced years of dying in sickness..."pain. sickness caused pain ~yeapp sure does. at some point of life, DEATH actually bring its own person to some kind of joy ; plus the fact that they would gathered back with their Father (;

have you afraid of the death?

i have. not just about MINE but all the people surround me. the most HATED THING in my life is LOST. yeapp i cant stand a lost. even just by a piece or just one point at my life. a tiny little spot or tears could ruined your day ~that's what my LOST would be.. disaster. BIG disaster for me.i cant stand a LOST ~to be honest.

LOST

of family. my dreams. bestfriends or just friend. sweethearts (: my favourite and historical things. those are always important. ALTHOUGH i'm not that kind of very expressive girl. sometimes i hated that fact. really. but that's the fact i'm living with. soo i'll show that LOVE with another thousand of ways. although sometimes that's soo hard to accept as a careness.but dont ignore that LOVE. rejoice the LOVE before the LOST come more nearby...

before you ever regret those times~

we've always played HIDE&SEEK with the death. accidentaly or not ~but that's what've happened for centuries! those sickness ; doctors scientists ~they've always tried to find the CURE how hard it gets (; amazing. then comes the unpredictable natural disasters ; another way of taking someone else's live... the answer is simply easy. LOST. not just me but all of people of humans in the world ; AFRAID and still CANT EVER STAND the death. THE LOST (;

never mind ; it's HUMAN anyway..