my little sister..

to be honest.. it's kinda embarrassing to tell you all about this *actually-hahaha. but anyway i find it precious to at last share something about my little sister.

i have one little sister. a girl. i'm the oldest here! *haah old ;(
we kinda separated far by age - about 5 years. i find it too far for the last three years.
she is soo unlike me hahaha. bad..
i was born from a two different world. my dad has the cold-blooded heir of dutch-colonialism : to be true-i'm still the heir of director jenderal hindia-belanda *wow hahaha. and my mam just a javanese.
soo here i am. with my father's blood.. "bule.." - as indonesian's said.
my sister? omigod she is soo indonesia. with that black-round-big eye and dark beautiful hair.
she has this kind of exsotic face. photogenic.
she is not skinny *she LOVES to eat - soo much! esp sweets.
as people passing by - they might say that the person whose supposed to be more jealous between us is my sister *upon me. and yet - they're all WRONG.
all this time i've being the more-jelousy girl. i'm older but at this time i'm soo acting like little girl
*hate that actually. what a jerk.. hehe.
that was about last year.
this is the part that i called EMBARASSING!
soo as usual-though me my sister and my mam are muslims *in case my dad is catholic - we celebrate christmas! ;) my sister still believe the old santa.. hahaa. and also the tooth fairy! and she is eleven years old already hahaa. guess who's the tooth fairy? ME! hehe.
well, back to the tpoic! she wrote this letter to santa - which then will be read by my own dad.
i found a letter in my sister's drawer. for santa.
in her letter, she was telling NOTHING about a thing for her christmas present. no-nothing.
all i see just words of prayer.. for who? firstly not for her. for mom dad me-as her sister and the world! the world?! when i was her age - i wont pray for the world. nopp! and yet that's actually what she's done. it was amazing. to be honest - when i read the letter, i was crying.
a s h a m e d .
my sister is a smart generous and a loveable little girl ;)
now i'm turning 16 and from this year i just realize that it was nothing i could suppose to be jealous of. i should took that as a way to change better. soo still i can be a big-old sister my little sister see as an example. i do love her ;)